Yesterday, I felt a little drained, tired and fearful. It was good that Ellen had to reschedule her interview last night to Saturday. After shining so brilliantly the day before, it seemed that I retreated from the light.
I recognized this and held back on my activities, especially online communications, and trusted that the mood would pass. Sure enough, towards the end of the afternoon, I began to feel lighter again and by the end of the day, I could feel my energy levels rebuilding.
I had a tremendous Dragon Spirit session that evening where I gained crystal clear clarity on the direction in which I am to grow my practice.
The waxing and waning of my energy made me wonder if it is a natural thing to feel a little deflated the next day. Did I expend so much energy that I was just physically tired? Or, did I see my brilliance and what I was capable of and reacted in fear? Was it the fear that left me feeling tired?
Interesting to ponder, as this morning, I awoke feeling rejuvenated and joyful, and full of love and optimism. Yet, I had gone to bed late that evening and according to physical measures, I should have been feeling very tired.
Marielle Smith suggested that it’s natural to have cycles of energy and to recognize and appreciate them. During the waning phase, just relax, recharge and rest. There is much wisdom to this advice.
I can’t help but notice though that I follow a pattern where great success is followed by a contraction of energy. In other words, two steps forward, one step back. Does everyone experience this? Is this the natural cycle?
When I feel I am stepping back, I literally step back and do nothing. Action from a state of blah-ness results in blah-ness at best, or a complete disaster, such as the plastic knob that opens up the back of your MacBook snapping off and thus, making it extremely difficult to remove the battery for a memory fix and hard drive upgrade. Yes, that happened about a month ago :).
I am blessed with being able to move through foul moods very rapidly. If you tend to get stuck in the blues, I’d highly recommend reading, “The Astonishing Power of Emotions” by Abraham-Hicks.
It’s a little “woo woo” as Annie Lin would say, but it provides really brilliant examples of common situations and how to change your thought patterns to feel better in a very short timeframe.